I'm thinking of Socrates reading your OP. People feel comfortable believing, but there is a price one has to pay for such comfort from a religion that has all the simple answers to life.
Don't be in a hurry to find the answers of life and force belief. Be patient this is a life long process that only ends when you die,, for all we know. Be inquisitive, explore this world, never loose your childlike way of looking at the world. This all ends once you know all the answers.
I know that I am intelligent, because I know that I know nothing.
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